With my past history of weight gain, fighting negativity re: weight is always an issue for me. Right now I’m struggling not being depressed about my weight. I know I’m supposed to gain an average of 5 pounds for the first trimester and so far I think I’ve gained 10.
$$%$#$%##!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is what I’m thinking, I’ve been eating more, because it makes my gag reflex go away and I’m not as tired, not as cranky and I have more energy. Because I have more energy I’ve been adding to my workouts slowly. This week will be my first week in 2 months that I will have worked out 4x a week, which is a HUGE improvement for me since I was feeling so dreadfully awful in the first 4-6 weeks.
I’ve also been eating better. My veggie intake has diminished since I’ve been pregnant so I’m trying to jump back on that bandwagon, eat less fatty foods, more dense, higher protein. Still, i weighed myself yesterday and felt like crying. My doctor is going to yell at me on Tuesday because I’ve gained too much weight. What the #$$$% am I supposed to do?! Stop eating and starve my baby? Nope…
Okay I’m clearly frustrated. I’m also claustrophobic of gaining weight and so far I’ve been patient with myself knowing that this is natural and that I am going to be gaining weight, but my back is getting flabbier, my thighs are bigger, my stomach is HUGE, it looks like I’m already in my 2nd trimester. What am I supposed to do!?!! 3 hours of cardio a day in addition to weight training. =( that’s what I feel like I have to do.
It’s great to start my birthday so far. I am trying not to worry about it, I’m going to get a good workout in, only for it to all go down the drain in my awesome birthday supper tonight.
The doc is getting an earful on Tuesday, with a lot of sad questions and probably a depressed mother.
I think I’m going to workout twice today. Cardio this morning and weights this afternoon. Thank goodness I can workout, it’s the only thing that makes me feel better.
If only someone had told me that yesterday.
My advice to women who are pregnant is always to at LEAST workout when you are pregnant, sometimes watching what you eat is not the easiest, unless you have your own personal nutritionist living wtih you in your home. With the extra hormones cravings are quite friendly. But keeping yourself active and moving around working out is definitely a huge bonus.