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Why I haven’t been blogging for the past year

Yes, my blog has been inactive for the past year, and it has been somewhat intentional.

I got pregnant (unplanned) last November. It rocked my world, at the time it didn’t seem like a positive rocking. I was still in the process of losing the baby weight from baby #1, and I had everything worked out, I was going back to work the next April. I work in the fitness industry and to know that I wouldn’t be my slim self again really hurt my ego. Basically, this unplanned pregnancy took all my planning and threw it out the window.  It also challenged me in so many ways, ways I am so grateful for now, it taught me to be grateful, grateful for what you have in life: fertility, health. It also brought out good traits of my personality I didn’t know exist in me, strength I didn’t know that I had, will power that I didn’t know I could harness, etc etc. This is my post sharing with you all what my journey has been like.

(I should mention that this period of time also brought out really negative aspects of my personality that I had to deal with and really try to not let take over me. It was hard!)

When I got pregnant, I was on the Ketogenic diet, which was really hard, but it was producing the results I wanted. I was also starving all.the.freaking.time. it was so annoying, and it wasn’t a pregnancy thing because I was experiencing that before I got pregnant. I continued on the ketogenic diet for a few months until about January when I felt that it probably wasn’t so healthy for the baby, after which I felt lost nutrition wise. Because I hadn’t lost all the baby weight from baby#1 (I was about 20 pounds away) I knew that I could not gain much weight with this baby. That meant more exercise than the previous pregnancy and a very different diet. Then I found paleo, I had been reading up on paleo before I got pregnant, I had been exposed to it but I didn’t know if I wanted to completely eliminate grains. Well, it ended up fitting my cravings and hunger extremely well. Not only did my energy INCREASE more while pregnant, I was overall much more satisfied and my weight and my gain ended up totaling roughly 22-24 pounds by the time I gave birth.

39 weeks.

January rolled around, and our finances were so tight, we went through a 2 week period with little to no food, I was starving, and I understood how homeless people felt. I would look at people in restaurants and be envious that they had food, and that they had money to pay for food, I would go by the grocery store just drooling for anything in there to eat. It was bad, luckily enough it only lasted about 2 weeks and things got better. In that period of time I was praying that my baby was okay, and that I was strong enough to keep the baby healthy despite lack of food. In addition to going through a starvation period, we decided to make some drastic life changes. My husband was going to return to the US (where he’s from) to work and I would stay in Canada, work till I gave birth, and my son would stay with my parents(two hours away from me) as we couldn’t afford daycare. I would visit on the weekends.

We moved February 1st, in the winter, it was freezing and we were exhausted and I was still in my first trimester.  I moved into a shoebox apartment without a kitchen, just some small appliances to get me by. My husband left a week later.  I ended up working shortly after that because we needed the money (So instead of 12 months of mat leave, I only took 10).  Those first few months of being separated from my husband and my son were the hardest things I have ever experienced in my life. Needless to say, I hit rock bottom. I have never hit rock bottom before in my life. It could have been a mixture of pregnancy hormones and loneliness but I remember bawling my eyes out in my apartment wondering wtf was happening in my life and not knowing what was going to come of it. Finances were SOO tight, I counted every single penny (until it got phased out in Canada, lol), every dollar and pinched everywhere I could. It led me to start reading finance books and in the span of 8 months I have really smartened up my finances and have a plan to pay off all debt by the end of 2014 or soon after.

Things got somewhat better, I developed some new hobbies, and focused more on educating myself. It was the only thing I could do spending my lonely evenings by myself and the weekends I couldn’t make it to visit my son (as gas is pretty expensive.) I went to the library a lot, did a lot of reading, tried to prepare myself as much as possible for childbirth in a more educational way. Finally around end of June my nesting hit and I realized I would have a baby soon. In this time period I was working out 5 days a week, weight lifting 3 of those sessions and walking the other two. I continued my ab workouts until my 3rd trimester. My weights remained heavy right up until the end of my pregnancy. The last workout I had before I gave birth was a leg workout that involved squats and lunges. I monitored my intensity via my HR monitor.

I gave birth on August 19th to my son, it lasted 4 hours and baby came out on the 2nd push. Overall it was 50% less painful than my first baby. I couldn’t believe it, A week after I gave birth I moved from my shoebox apartment to my parents house. I was exhausted and in this time I was also trying to increase my milk supply by doing everything under the sun to increase it and also not be stressed out while having to move and not lift too heavy items.

Yes at this point my husband is still away. We are finally all going to be together next week.

In the past months a lot has been going through my mind and the itch to blog again has arisen, I wanted to write this post and get it off my chest.

Basically, we are stronger human beings than we think we are. I know now, that I am strong, and that I can do what I need to do for my family in crazy circumstances should they arise. This has been the hardest thing I have done in my life, the past 8 months. I do not wish it on anyone, but man did it shape me. I am stronger, more educated (about myself and other things), more patient and realize that we, as humans have SO much to be grateful for. I have a new outlook on life, it could be worse. Everyone’s situation could be worse. It’s all a matter of perspective. I consider that to be the greatest gift (other than my baby) during this rough period.

I’ll be posting quite a bit more, in reference to things I have learned physically and fitness wise during my pregnancy that I hope will help all those who follow my blog for fitness/nutrition help! 🙂

I should also mention that towards the end of our separation we have received SO many blessings and signs pointing that this whole decision we made for our family has been worth it!

My son born August 19th.

My son born August 19th.

More to come in the next few weeks.

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One day at a time, one meal at a time, one step at a time

Lately with this new going to the gym etc, it’s hard to be patient. It’s hard to wait for results, but honestly, is it really worth sweating and getting unhappy about it?
I’m pretty flipping lucky. God has blessed me with an amazing husband, an amazing son, and overall an amazing life. This weight loss journey I’m at now is completely different than what it was when I was overweight in highschool, back then I just wanted guys to like me. Now I’m doing this for me. Well, not entirely true, I’m doing it for myself AND my family, because as the cook of the house, my family basically relies on me to keep their tummies happy and also make sure that their tummies are getting GOOD nutrients, not crap food.

When I step into the gym now, I couldn’t give a rats ass what somone thinks of me, or my body, or my hair, or the fact I don’t have any makeup on, because IT DOESN’T MATTER. I’m here for one thing, and that is to make myself more fit, and more healthy. Sure I’m the only girl in the weight room, ALWAYS. I’m surrounded by meatheads, yah I’m a little plump and I don’t push as much weight as I used to, but I. don’t. care. When I’m at the gym, I think


One step closer to my goal. When I get home, it transfers over to what I eat. After I’m doing eating, I think

I’m TWO steps closer!

Don’t make the mistake of being one those people that after the gym are like: “yah I’m going to go to starbucks and have 500 calories in a drink with 30 grams of sugar! yayyyy treat!!!” because you are just screwing yourself over. Talk about cheating on yourself!

Do the research, eat the right things, be HEALTHY. Make it a lifestyle choice and don’t cheat on yourself. Push yourself to your limits, even if you’re tired after 5 hours of sleep, maybe go and just do some light cardio at the gym. Remember, you won’t be a step closer if you take a step in the wrong direction. Sure there will be days when you can’t make it to the gym and the only thing you can do is go for a walk outside, but eat healthy and don’t let yourself fall behind.

Having a cheat meal once a week is okay – but leave it at that. Look forward to it, then keep yourself focused on your goal. Focus on being focused. 🙂

Wait! Don’t leave yet! Check out my new knitted bow headband on your way out. 😉 Maybe pin it to pinterest if you’re interested? Thanks!

(c) Style EnVie Studios. Check out the headband here: Fleece Lined Women’s Knit Bow Headband on Etsy

Have a great Saturday and MAKE IT COUNT! 🙂 I know I’ll be heading to the gym tonight! 🙂

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New motivation and new recipes

I have fallen off the blogging bandwagon because my business and my son have been keeping me ridiculously busy. Yet, as of late i have had some people asking me about my blog so I have come back! It’s great that people ask me about my blog, it makes me feel good because I know I’m helping people and they learn and appreciate the info I put on here.
Regarding my weight loss journey, it’s still going! I hit bottom about 2 months ago, I just stopped losing, had no motivation for working out in the house anymore. I tried p90x but it wasn’t working for me, I just didn’t enjoy it really (what’s the point of doing something if you don’t enjoy it?) and I was unhappy. Even though my business was really taking off I wasn’t happy at the weight I was currently at. Right now I’m hovering around 187-186. (When I gave birth I was 246) and my regular pre pregnancy weight is 165, so I’m suuuuper close to my goal! 1st part of my goal was to be at 179-175 by Christmas time, I still think I can make it because:


Yes, I did, I went last week just to inquire, I figured “what the hell, information can’t hurt”. When I walked in, they have a DAYCARE!! hellls yes, they had a daycare so mommies could workout. I got so wicked excited. Their monthly payment I could afford, AND I didn’t have any cancellation fees (so no worrying bout that when I have to go back to work). I was PUMPED, so I talked to the hubby about it and BOMB, I have been going regularly 4x/week with doing some pilates at home in between (or trying to at least).

Since I have joined the gym, I am SO much more relaxed, I have my time to go to the gym, I don’t worry about my weight, I’m confident even though I’m still rather plump, hey, someone’s gotta start somewhere right? I’m much weaker than I used to be but it takes time and as long as I’m putting my effort in when I go that’s all that matters. My eating is much more on track as well, I can’t just skip meals when I want to, (because that’s what I was doing beforehand when I wasn’t working out regularly.) I also have more energy and I feel overall much more confident about my body and also about my weight loss.

My eating has been really good (other than occasionally skipping meals *slaps wrist*) and I am booking an appointment to meet with a Holistic Nutritionist in the near future! I will keep you updated on that, because that’s going to be awesome.

I’m excited for my next set of measurements because now that I’m REGULARLY weight training, they are going to be changing a lot faster  for the better! I’ll be taking them next Sat! 🙂

On another note, Christmas is next month (ah!!) and I’ve been really busy knitting, but I wanted to share with you some of the items I’ve been making and maybe check them out on my shop and see if you need some lovely hand knit Christmas gifts under your tree this year?

I know I’m weird, I love to knit but I’m also addicted to the gym. Hey! A person is allowed to be weird. :p

That’s just a sneak peak, to see all the new stuff go to my shop here:

Fleecy knits

Now for some recipes, I have found this FANTASTIC page on facebook that posts holistic recipes for REAL food. Most items are gluten free, wheat free, dairy free, soy free and refined sugar free. I mean, how much more could you ask for in life?! You can find the page here: Just Eat Real Food

Lately I had made this breakfast bread that I found on their page. I made it and my husband ate it up in pretty much one sitting so I had to go and make another one. It’s EASIER than pie, and very healthy, so go make some up for yourself now! Paleo Breakfast Bread

Last night I made this double fudge: It’s VERY rich, though it’s mostly just coconut oil and almond butter, but I can’t have more than 1 piece a day because of how rich it is. If you like fudge, this is definitely for you! Paleo Double Layer Fudge

Now I’m not Paleo, but I LOVE all the paleo recipes! They are so fantastic, if you think you can do Paleo, I say go for it! 🙂

Until next time – train and eat and knit happy!

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Eating + Fleecy Knits

It’s been a few weeks since I last posted. It’s not because I have been intentionally ignoring my readers, it’s because my business: Fleecy Knits has taken off to a rather hectic start!
For those of you that don’t know, I run a small business on the side. It’s not because I simply enjoy knitting that I have this business, it’s because funds are extremely low in our family and I am trying to pull in a little bit more $$ to help things around the house. I knit hats, headbands and mittens that are fleece lined so that way you don’t get the wind on your ears and head in the winter time.

If you care to check it out: my shop on Etsy:

Last week I had a photoshoot so I was spending my whole entire week trying to have a good amount of items to photograph. Currently I am waiting on the pictures so I am excited! Within a few days I will have quite a few new items in my shop.

I have realized that a huge part of having a successful online business is having good pictures. Pictures speak so loud, people want your shop, business and items to look extremely professional and that is what I am working on. As you can probably see, a lot of my items do not look very professional, well, that was from when I first started out. You live you learn!

Yesterday I added these cute toddler fingerless mitts which I am rather proud of. They are fleece lined of course. Yesterday I made Thumbless toddler mitts, perhaps I will have pictures to share them with you tomorrow.

On another note, which is fitness related. For the past 2-3 weeks my weight loss has kind of plateaued, which really stinks because I need to stay on track if I want to reach part 1. of my weight loss goal by December. I was getting a bit worried. I haven’t been able to do a whole lot of cardio lately because I’ve been knitting so much and paired with going to bed later,  I don’t have much energy. I have been buckling down though and definitely have been trying to maintain my resistance training workouts. This morning I got up to take care of my son, I looked in the mirror and I thought my tummy looked a bit smaller, and so then I weighed myself and sure enough! I had lost 2 lbs! YAY!
I think the difference is that for the past couple weeks I was living the mentality that I shouldn’t be eating a lot of food, recently I cut out my grains to help aid in my weight loss (as I used to when I first lost a lot of weight back when I was 16), but I was probably only having about 4 meals a day, I was going to bed really hungry, getting up late and only having a small breakfast, then lunch then a snack and then supper. Also I wasn’t eating enough protein. So yesterday I made it my goal to eat 6 meals a day, and to not let myself get hungry, to not worry about how many calories I was eating, but to make sure I was getting enough protein paired with good fats and good carbohydrates. Overall it helped my workout more, I was more energize and lo and behold, I finally lost a couple pounds.

So, if you’re trying to lose weight, don’t be stupid like me and not eat enough because that won’t get you anywhere. Try and eat healthy meals more often! It does wonders!

Oh, and check out my shop online. 🙂



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12 months is not a lot of time

Not many of you are aware of my “fitness” situation postpartum, so instead of seeing me as this overly anal pregnant nut who’s severely worried about her after baby fitness: there’s actually a reason I’m like that! Other than because I’m enthusiastic about  being fit.

It is mandatory for me to return to work in a year’s time (so next April) and in order for me to keep my job I have to maintain a fitness level. Now, the fitness level I have to maintain really isn’t that big of a deal, run 5.5 on the beep test, 9 pushups and a decent amount of situps, as well as a grip strength. It’s kind of a joke in our job how easy that is, yet it’s amazing how many women can’t do 9 consecutive pushups after a 5.5 minute run, not only that BUT to do that 12 months after having your core ripped out of you almost literally through giving birth.

So, 12 months really isn’t that much time!

It took me 4 months to be able to perform 2 perfect “military” style pushups, so 12 months is going to be a challenge to keep my standard up in terms of performing 9+. Hence the importance of start a training regime asap.

Within the year not only do I need to prepare for my fitness test once getting back to work, but I am also going to participate in a power lifting competition. I want to do something different, and I also want to become more familiar with the major essential exercises in the fitness industry, my coworker is going to guide me in this area and well, it’ll be fun! It will also help me re build my core strength as those functional lifts (dead lift, bench press, squat etc) require a decent amount of core strength!

Now some of you might think that with this mentality I have going on that I’m not even thinking about how awesome the time is going to be with my baby after he/she is born, quite the contrary! I am super excited for this new phase in my life, a little bit anxious but definitely excited. I am excited to meet this new person that God has graciously given my husband and I. I look forward to being able to work out with my child, something a lot of parents don’t realize that they can do. If you have time to go on facebook while you’re at home, you can workout while keeping a good eye on your children at home too.

I already have this idea of my husband doing pushups and the children (a few years down the road!) crawling on top of him for a fun ride while he’s performing his pushups, now THAT is awesome. Makes it more challenging for him and also more fun for the kids! There’s so many ways to incorporate your children into making it a game for them while you’re still getting a workout at the same time. Mind you this can only be done with limited equipment at home. For the serious weight lifters, well, mum and dad will have to do a split shift in order for that to happen!

My point is, it’s all where your priorities lie, if you’re not willing to spend less time on the computer then don’t complain about not being able to workout or lose your post baby fat after the baby is born. Make wise food choices, I’m sure I will be tired as hell after the baby is born, I’m not going to get a straight nights sleep, I’m going to be cranky, but exercise is a stress reliever, doesn’t matter how much or how long, or how intense(or low key) it is, just get’er done!

Check out this site for a few ideas for working out with your children at their different ages:

Workout ideas for working out with your children


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Working off that sluggish feeling of a long weekend that included lots of turkey and butter

We are all there, just admit it, you’re sad the long weekend is gone, but you are happy that you have turkey left overs! boo yeah!! However, you might be fighting off that sluggish feeling of the weekend, and all the large meals and gravy that you consumed and it’s Tuesday, time to work it off.


This post is going to be very simple in the fact that I am extremely exhausted I know that much. Last week I was so busy, I worked out 4x in addition to cleaning and organizing my house like crazy on the weekend for no other reason than just because. I also went for a bike ride on Sunday which then led to 4 days of working out straight = a lot of exercise for a 14 week pregnant woman who normally rests evenly on the weekends. Needless to say I could barely get through my workout today, but at the end, you gotta get your butt moving and anything is better than nothing!

Sure I might not have worked off two huge turkey meals, but you have to start somewhere, I’m sure mostly everyone is going back to normal eating habits, just make sure that your exercise habits are up there with them.

So this is your friendly neighbour hood reminder to not continue to sit on your ass and that it’s a 4 day week, so workout 3-4x if you can before that weekend comes, and go make yourself feel refreshed with a good workout!! =) Energy will come back that will have started to drift off with the long weekend.


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Men’s only gyms? huh?

I was asked my opinion yesterday on men’s only gyms, and that why not have them because some men find women distracting when they work out.

I asked my two male coworkers today if they would attend a male only gym. The 1st one said “no! I want to look at women” the other said “Well it depends, depends on whether they have good equipment and are well priced and a convenient location.”

I think it’s a rather curious idea. I would have never thought of it personally, mainly because when guys workout, they don’t work out to get distracted, nor do they go to check women out unless they are really lame and can only find a hook up through going to the gym. Most often times women who attend gyms are not exactly dressed to be “checked out” unless of course you live in Toronto where every female who goes to the gym dresses like her boobs and ass are on runway.

I think if I asked more males about this concept they would most likely be confused and most likely answer no, mainly because a) they don’t really think about it and b) it’s nice having a mix of the sexes in a gym. I like it, I would NEVER go to an all female gym, nooo way, uncomfortable and the machine selection is pretty much zero, no heavy weights, etc etc.

I just googled this and found this amusing thread: showthread.php?t=122708011&page=1

If a guy is constantly finding himself distracted by women in the gym, uh, you might need to re-find your motivation. Most guys who work out it’s hard to get them distracted because they are focused on their workout and enjoying their swell.

I think women’s gyms are a joke, personally…. but it works for some people and I do respect that. However, if you’re really motivated to workout and you’re honestly there because you want to be healthy, and are not worried about your looks it isn’t going to matter. BUT, some women’s only gyms have daycare setups which (being a mother soon) is a SWEET set up! They had this at the YMCA in Toronto and it was the bomb!!!! However, that’s a post for another day.

I find that working with men is inspiring, and it also keeps me liable, I can’t lift 10 lb weights forever and I shouldn’t. Guys are impressed when a girl can lift heavy weights, so when I get to that day, it’ll make me feel better. Sometimes it goes in the other direction where I don’t want to go to the weight area because I’ve been injured and I can’t lift as much etc etc.

Now, in the military however, no one cares. If girls wanna work out or lift weights, uh you have no choice, there is no room to be self conscious and it honestly shouldn’t matter. The goal is the same between the sexes, and the results are the same too, if the focus and motivation are there it shouldn’t make a difference. Some people are shy, and some people like to work out on their own, there’s plenty of room to do that in a military facility which is not so easy to do at say a goodlife (which is unfortunate).

Sometimes it’s about being educated, people don’t want to work out in the testosterone zone because it seems they lift heavy and they “know” what they are doing, I say that in quotation marks because there are a tons of beefed up guys who don’t know squat (and don’t literally squat, chicken leg syndrome!). There are tons of people out there to educate and make others feel welcome in a gym, that’s part of my job description and it only makes me happy to be able to make someone else feel like they can get a good workout in the weights area because now they know what to do.

Conclusion, I think male only gyms are unnecessary.  What happens when you get to the elite athlete level, there are elite female athletes too, whatcha gonna do, get distracted? You can’t afford to at that level.

Also, women don’t need to wear skin tight clothing to the gym, yes I oftentimes wear cute lululemon tops that probably make me come across like some bitch who doesn’t know a thing about working out and only wears it to look pretty. Well, I like being able to see my arms workout, I like seeing my progress, which is why I wear tank tops like that, it’s functional and it makes me feel good, so… yeah… that’s my reason for not wearing super xxx large t-shirts when I work out. Tighter pants and shorts are functional, especially when it comes to doing agility work,  it’s not about me trying to get someone’s attention, it helps me keep focused on MY goal.

So if I look like a ditz working out, too bad, cause I’m focused on something else called GOALS.

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